Help please!! Shadow is sick!!!

[wildbird]

I feel very bad for you having to go through this. It happened so fast. Could there have been pesticide on the grapes? There are so many things that can happen to them. Vets don't always help either. You took good care of him and he had a good life with you. That is all anyone can do. Hope you can eventually pair the female with another male. So sorry for your loss.

[fhgwgads]

Angela&Shalamar thank you I appreciate your condolences.

@Nanajennie I thought of you when Shadow passed away. It's really is sad. I could not stand looking at my poor baby on the bottom of the cage clearly not feeling good.. all puffy and weak. He meeped at Kuri a few times too.. as if he was letting her know he was ok (or at least that's what I want to believe!!). I highly doubt the eggs I have are going to hatch.. because little mama isn't as diligent now.. and will probably be even less so now that she is depressed. If they do hatch I would like to name one of them Charlie (and with my track record of bird naming.. even if it's a girl). But I really don't think they will . It's just so heart breaking. I can't get the image of him out of my head.. and feeling so helpless. The fact that this time last night he was still alive.. on the swing next to the love of his life.. his mate. The fact that I wanted to just hold him so badly and comfort him. The fact that he tried to be ok... he tried to go back on the swing with her.. and tried to show me he was ok when he really wasn't. His eyes were open too.. so I know he didn't die in his sleep.. I just hope he wasn't in a lot of pain. It just literally kills me emotionally. No finch will ever be like him.. he could never be replaced.. he was such a special, sweet bird. I am glad he was able to have the happy times he did.. and have babies.. and was able to be with Kuri... but I just can't deal with the fact that he is gone now.. and so sudden. It will take a while.. but there is nothing I can do about it. I just miss him so much already.. having to wake up and not hear him singing.. not getting excited when I go over to the cage and give him fresh water to bathe in... and broccoli and shaved cuttlebone which he LOVED. Not hearing him do his little meep noises in contentment that almost sounded like happy sighs as he ate.. or just sat in the afternoon looking out the window relaxing.. or when he used to talk to the train when it went by. Not hearing him cuddle with mama several times a day.. and sing and dance to her. Not having him do his little routine ending with his little tail waving. Not having him calm everyone else down when they would hear something and start yelling.. and he would just sing instead. And not having him act silly.. throwing things around, tossing pieces of millet.. or picking up pieces of millet to put them in the bowl for nesting material. Or the fact that him and mama would sit together and preen mid-day.. and just watch out the window together relaxing. They were so happy together.. HE was so happy.. more so that the other birds (besides Sparrow).. but he just had such a personality. I just can't stop thinking about it all. I can't get it all out of my head. I just want him to have known that I loved him. That I wanted to help and comfort him. That I did everything I could for him always. I feel like I am crazy for being so hurt and upset to the point where I haven't eaten all day and did nothing but lay around trying to not think in between crying. But to me it is like losing a child (granted.. I have never had a child and the bond between a mother and her child is obviously way deeper.. but it's the closest I have ever had to a child). He was my baby boy. There is a huge hole in my heart. Hopefully I can try to get some sleep tonight.. I got a little bit of sleep early this past morning but dreamt about him and finding him dead. Here I am rambling on and on again!!! Ugh!!

[fhgwgads]

wildbird I highly doubt it... I cleaned them 3x.. plus they came pre-washed in a little container.. not in a bunch on the vine. And he didn't even touch them. All of my birds had them. Even the lettuce I give them is the bagged lettuce ready to eat and I was that too. The only thing that doesn't come that way is the broccoli and I clean that thoroughly and never had problems. I think he just had something going on that I didn't know about. It may explain why out of all the eggs they had a million of them didn't hatch and nearly half of the hatchlings were tossed.. and Sparrow has one eye and scissor beak.. and Aurora passed away shortly after fledging. But then again I don't know. The only thing that was ever wrong was a little bump above his eye.. but it went away. So I have no idea.. but I haven't done anything different.. and nothing that I did with him and not the other birds.. especially since he shared a cage with Kuri, too.

[Nanajennie]

fhgwgads I am so sorry, I didn't see this til just now...

I am honored you would name one Charlie! Thank warms my heart.

It is really hard isn't it? They get into our hearts and heads so easily.. becoming family...

This too shall pass. Hang in there! Is she sitting on the eggs?? (fingers crossed )

[Madcat]

OH NO!!! I'm hurting along with you. Keeping u in our hearts!!!!